2015.08.04: human condition

Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” – Mt 14:31

o Lord, my God
it is not you that I doubt
it is myself that I doubt
i can never withstand the test of time
no matter how many times you forgive me
i just can’t stop sinning
no matter how many deeds you perform
i can’t stop doubting
i fear
it’s the human condition

yet in my despair
you come and comfort me
you do not wish for an unblemished soul
you do not need an unstained baptismal gown
you only want sincerity
you want an honest dialogue
a total abandonment of disguises
no more barriers to connection
a perfect union of human and divine
one body
one soul
one Spirit

2015.05.07: remain in my love

As the Father loves me, so I also love you. Remain in my love. – Jn 15:9

in the raging storm
paralyzed by fears and doubts
remain in my love
when you fear footsteps
doggedly tracking your heels
remain in my love
when you see the light
revealing all that’s hidden
remain in my love