2015.05.03: not far away

“… so that people might seek God, even perhaps grope for him and find him, though indeed he is not far from any one of us.” – Acts 17:27

all of my life
you have been with me
walking beside me
accompanying me
on my journey

yet i was unaware
even when you saved me
from the clutch of death
not once but twice
i still did not know you

then when at last
my restless heart
goes seeking for you
only to find you
with me all along

oh what joy it was
the day you removed
the scales from my eyes
and i could see
what my heart
had already known
that you were with me
right from the start

all thanksgiving
and praise be to you
for the gift of grace
to finally be aware
that you are with me
that you will walk with me
every step of the way
on my journey home


2015.01.14: die no more

and free those who through fear of death had been subject to slavery all their life. – Heb 2:15

that day in the old church
sitting at a friend’s funeral
even the stained glass window
could not keep out your saving light

that night in the hot tent
awakened by gripping fear
holding on desperately
by a rosary counted on fingers

that morning in the chapel
i was sure the door was locked
and i was shut out forever
from the inner sanctuary

that moment when i first knew
the beating of my own heart
was a knocking on the door
to a hidden inner sanctum

every aware moment since
i opened the door to the God
who came and died to show
that death is not the end of Love

2015.01.03: a water dream

last night
i slept
and dreamed

i was
in a well

i felt
all around

i was
with the water

i saw
the stars
(a round picture)
above me

no limbs
to climb out

no panic

i heard
a voice
in the silence
“go deeper”

so deeper
i dove
than i’ve
ever been

i felt
a current
gently tugging
and heard
a voice
“follow me”

I knew
the voice
and followed

i surrendered
my will

i remained

the river
carried me

we flowed
ever onward

i was
in an ocean

i was
in the ocean
and the river
and the well
all at once

i saw lights
from the distant

i noticed
the moon
and the stars
gleaming brightly
in the water
with me

i am
with the water

the water
and i
are one

i woke up
this morning
“i can’t swim”

2015.01.01: The first step

A journey of a thousand miles begin with a single step.  Lao-Tzu

we are all born
with an emptiness inside
a longing for more
than the struggle to survive
a mystery is waiting
for those who yearn
with searching minds
and open hearts

we will take the plunge
until our wings spread
taking flight each day
where will we go
what will we see
only the future will reveal

so it is today
this journey begins
yesterday was too soon
tomorrow will be too late
take a moment
breath in deeply
feel the exhilaration
then dive in
let’s make a leap of faith